What was it like knowing that you'd never say goodbye?

what was it like making the decision

to leave us all confused and helpless

did your hands shake

were they steady as usual

were you smiling or crying

when you saw our faces in your mind

for the very last time.

thank g-d

Now I've heard there was a secret chord

That David played, and it pleased the Lord

But you don't really care for music, do you?

It goes like this

The fourth, the fifth

The minor fall, the major lift

The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof

You saw her bathing on the roof

Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you

She tied you

To a kitchen chair

She broke your throne, and she cut your hair

And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before

I know this room, I've walked this floor

I used to live alone before I knew you.

I've seen your flag on the marble arch

Love is not a victory march

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know

What's really going on below

But now you never show it to me, do you?

And remember when I moved in you

The holy dove was moving too

And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain

I don't even know the name

But if I did, well really, what's it to you?

There's a blaze of light

In every word

It doesn't matter which you heard

The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much

I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch

I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you

And even though

It all went wrong

I'll stand before the Lord of Song

With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Baneful Beast

This is by an artist that i met at the crafty-feast here in columbia. i really like his work and you should check out their site- theblakmarket.com

enjoy today for tomorrow could hold something ugly. enjoy each other.

those people by the river are all lost

is it better to exist or to not exist?

sometimes, as a human being, i wonder whether or not i truly am what i want to be? am i just a product of my environment? did i truly have any ruling as to how my life would turn out?

-dont get me wrong here, i am completely happy with my wife and the direction i/we are headed in our lives. before i know it we will be out-right adults teaching and functioning in 'adult' society. thats scary.

back to what i was saying; am ' I ' truly what i am supposed to be? i know i am not the only person who ever feels this way. life is crazy. i guess i will never truly know what i am 'supposed' to be but i will always do what makes me happy and what is right to me.

who can say what they want to be isnt what our environments have influenced us to want?

is it good to be seen or good to invisible?