life

its funny how things change over time for better and for worse. you make friends and you lose them. you lose them to themselves, to girlfriends, to drugs, to gods. life seems to take away everything that is important at one point in time and replace it with something else. the importance of that substitute is yet to be determined. it remains undetermined until we realize that it is gone,

forever.

the complexity of things is rather simple.

time ruins all.

bodies begin to shut down and brains begin to wander.

hearts refuse to beat and lungs resist their breathing.

eyes grow dim as hair grows thin.

and we still smile.

we smoke to slow our breathing.

we drink to cloud our brains.

we love to make it through the night.

after driving an hour to see some friends and half of them sitting in a car getting fucked up the entire night i am bitter

naturally i want to bury this feeling with narcotics but i withhold.

it is just another thing that tells me i need to get the hell out of SC and start over with my wife.

chelsea, you are strong, you can win.

Rachel, you are my love and i will never stop thinking about you. ever or stop loving you. you have my heart and i wear my ring proudly. thank you :)